I started to get angry while reading an article concerning Fukushima nuclear accident, which I read in a weekly magazine when I visited a bank.  My anger may not be directed to the right point as I live in the western part of the Country.  Anyway, the article was about the fact that the worker at the site receives only 10 thousand yen a day even though Tokyo Electric Power Company (TEPCO) is paying 70 thousand to a subcontracted company.  First of all, the people of TEPCO do not usually get into dangerous places and they make the subcontracted company do those jobs.  The latter has another subcontract and the like.  In the worst scenarios, the last company gets 30 thousand and pays its workers only 10 thousand each.  Furthermore, according to the article, they were using pencils to record the amount of radiation the workers get during every job, so that TEPCO can falsify the records later.

  At many times, I was sent, as a temp worker, to production lines of big companies when I was in Osaka.  Pretty often times, I was mad at those employees who did not clean the factory after work and at the temp agency that took a cut.  I feel really terrible.  It is disgusting that some people say “Japanese people are fantastic because they do not set off a riot,” while the average cut in this Country is 40%.  It seems that it is legalized to set the maximum cut rate to 10% in Europe and America.  It is not the era of Edo!  I strongly want the evil world ends soon.

  I recalled a story I heard about 30 years ago, from a friend who entered Sophia University.  She made friends with a daughter of the president of an electric company.  She told me that the daughter was lucky enough to live in a high-rise apartment free, which was owned by her parent.  Also, I remembered that she told me that she was treated with a full course of about 150,000yen in a VIP room of a restaurant when she went out for a dinner with the family of the daughter.  The parent seemed to be a real billionaire, and to have enormous real estates.

  I suppose that electric companies and mass communications companies must hold huge vested interests.

  And it makes me feel absurd to work honestly when I happen to know the income of famous singer-songwriters and of lyricists and composers.  They could even earn royalties from karaoke.  One can live in idleness for the rest of the life once he or she makes a great hit.

  I think that for most Japanese people, their brains and ears degenerate because they often listen to low grade music.  I am one of those victims.

  I intended to go to Tokyo twice, in the past, to seek a way to be a professional composer.  The first one was in the Spring of 1983.  I was planning to go to Tokyo, taking a registered absence from the university.  I was hit back by the heat wave of the Tokyo branch just before it was built up.  Well, to be more specific, then-head of Tokyo branch strongly got mad at this idea and suggested me to go back home.  In that year, I had scabies which was epidemic around that time, so it was a right decision that I  had a leave that year.  I noticed the fearfulness of invisible things, just like radiation.

  The second time was the Spring of 1995.  It was the year when a huge earthquake struck Hanshin and Awaji area, and several incidents caused by a Japanese cult, Aleph occurred.  I stayed at my brother’s apartment in Saitama for a while. However, I could not come back again to Tokyo area after I went back to my home for a memorial big ceremony.

  But, now, Tokyo does not matter to me any more now.  Words from a book, Johathan Livingston Seagull, “Heaven is not a place, and it is not a time. Heaven is being perfect” sounds differently from before.

  I tried to entitle the song I created when I uploaded the video for the first time, but I just could not.  I could not overcome my own state of mind that I just did not want to.  I am now wondering about uploading it with only the file name of symbols of alphabet characters and numbers.  I am busier in working part-time at night shift than before because another company that had been producing the same material as we did abandoned their production.  My uploading of videos does not go smoothly even during the day time on account of chores.  The electric piano at my house, which I bought 25 years ago lacks amplitude of loudness, so it seems necessary for me to rent a studio with a usual piano.  I have been thinking of dyeing of my white hair, but I just cannot take that action.

  But my works will have to be reduced in two months because of the economic purification and the spiritual purification tends to drive me nuts.  So, in any case, I am planning to upload the video as originally planned.  The translation function on the PCs has been improving and this seems to work OK even with my poor English abilities.

  I am not sure about blogging because some people may make uncomfortable comments.

2011.4.8